I’m so much aware that I’ve been such a different person lately.

Seriously, I’m starting to lose my mind. I forgot where I left my sanity but I know something’s wrong with me. No, wait, I still am in a proper disposition. Now I really think I do have a problem.

I know I’ve been holding back my tears. I want to cry, really. But my tears just won’t give in, not just yet. Or maybe, they really won’t. I won’t deny that I cry easily because it’s the best way for me to let go of whatever I feel - anger or sadness. It’s just that these past few days, I’m pretty sure that I wanted to cry, but I can’t. 

Everything’s starting to fall apart. I can feel it. I’ve never been this depressed. A part of me wants to do something about it, yet the bigger half would remind me that there’s nothing I can do anymore. I’m already at the edge of the cliff, and I can fall anytime. I have a lot of questions in mind but I can’t seem to find any answer. I want to scream right now but my voice is nowhere to be found.

Wish I can explain everything and cry my heart out. But this is everything that I know as of this moment and I regret knowing just this much because I can’t understand myself anymore. I want to know what’s happening but I barely know anything and it sucks more than ever. I don’t even think I still know who I am.

(Source: kevinisiah)

Will start blogging again next week. Hihi. Got a lot of stuff to tell. Let me just finish my exams first. :>